Business school sounds intimidating and scary but also invigorating and exciting but that doesnt mean i have to let go of other interests I can always change my mind.
I feel weirder then ive ever felt in my life. like there is soooomuch mising, but its nothing im getting here. its all inside, its because i feel like i have no real purpose right now. work is shitty but easy and i can get whatever bours i needs to work around school when i start.
im noticing myself changing in better ways and in worse ways, but i feel like my relationship with my parents and grandparents isnt where it should be but sometimes i feel like all in time ill be just fine. If i was in love life would be easier always having one person u enjoy talking to there for you whenever you need them,its not the same when someone else trys to cheer you up when they dont make you feel complete. i sometimes wish i had never fallen out of love with my ex, wish i would of never taken the risk of letting go, but i did and right now its the only positive thing ive rally done for myself in a while. I always hold on to things that others have already let go but thats how i feel and im over trying to make everyone understand me. at this point im just an open book with blank pages waiting to be written, and nothing here at the moment is worth starting a new chapter.
Its ok if you change you mind in college. I have changed what I thought I wants to be many of times in ther last 4 years. I still don't even know completley, but thats why you go to school and do things to figure it out. Your not supposed to know completley exactly what you want to do in 10 years.
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yeah your right! as long as i get back in there and at least get my feet wet thats the best thing for me!! <3333 I wishi could be more like you honestly you have so much brain power and you use it all to its greatest power! im soo A D D , i need to find my interests!! smoking weed cant be the only thing im really good at and enjoy doing hahah!
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